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OH get me away from here, I'm dying [27 Feb 2006|05:26pm]
[ mood | anxious ]


As I'm a complete myspace WHORE, I update that blog a lot more often than this one.

Add me if it remotely interests you, I will definitely add you back because it makes me look more popular, ha.

Right I've got to stop procrastinating and get on with that facking essay.

Ciao bella xo

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last night.. [25 Feb 2006|04:03pm]
[ mood | i thought it said 'food' there ]

.. was a treat.

Me and Charley made pizza, the dough & everything, and it was really nice.

We made fairy cakes too but Charley said they were horrible. I thought they were alright, just looked a bit sick with green icing on top hahaha.

We watched Coffee & Cigarettes, 24-Hour Party People, and the Morrissey live dvd... oh only 2 months til we see Moz himself! :D

I'm supposed to be doing some photography now but my camera batteries are still charging, and I have no chickens in the house.

My hair is really stupid, I don't know what to do.. if I have my fringe out, it needs to be kept in place by loads of hairspray because it annoys me when it gets messed up. But if I try to part my hair on the side, it never stays where it's supposed to either.. grrr. And I'm sick of hairspray cos it makes my hair feel like plastic. Good news is I havent dyed it since November, so it's starting to get some volume back :] it's getting really long too, so I doubt I'll go for extensions after all.

I havent been on livejournal in ages, cos I've actually had a social life these past few months ;o

I knew I'd come crawling back.

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lastnight [23 Jan 2006|04:49pm]
[ mood | complacent ]

..was great

& I had a dream involving Nick Cave ♥ ....


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we must stare into crystal balls & only see the past [04 Jan 2006|04:34pm]
You scored as Art. You should be an Art major! How bohemian!






























What is your Perfect Major?
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- [30 Dec 2005|11:41pm]
[ mood | grumpy ]

So, the end to another year, let's sum up what has happened (or what HASN'T):

- Finished school, passed all my exams, started a new college.

- Made loads of new friends, makes me wonder if I'm really as much of a fuck-up as I think I am.

- Had a crap awful terrible vile job, which I quit after 2 months.

- Found another job which I really enjoyed and made better money - sadly that's coming to an end soon :[

- Only had 1 boyfriend this year (but still managed to do some things I'm not too proud of), which is an imrovement on the year before.. the less said about that, the better!! However it didn't work out. And I'm beginning to think I'm cursed or something.

- Lost half a stone in weight this year :] excellent.

- Went on 2 holidays :] :]

- Was generally happier than last year, although there have been moments..

- Had loads of different hair colours: brown, black, red, blonde bits, green, blue.. now I'm back to black.

- Went to a few great gigs.

- Er..... can't remember anything else that happened in my mediocre little life.

I can't be bothered with tomorrow night, family party - translates as: my mother getting drunk and disgracing herself (and me), having to walk home at stupid o'clock through the snow & puddles, and probably nursing a nasty big hangover the morning after. Argghghghghghg. Is it wrong to want to stay at home and 'celebrate' on my own? Haha so unsociable.

I wonder what 2006 will bring........ I hope for some interesting TRAVELLING, SIGNIFICANT OTHERS who are actually significant to me, a new JOB that I'll enjoy and that pays well, to pass all of my exams and resist the urge to slack off, lots of new and interesting FRIENDS are never a bad thing either. Oh, and some TIME to myself and my hobbies wouldn't hurt :]

I hope everyone had a good year, here's to the next.


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In the pipeline. [28 Dec 2005|01:50pm]

More art - possible distribution & sale [fingers crossed]

Clothing line - accessories, customised bags, D.I.Y shirts, pins etc

'Zine - I'll be taking care of the fashion/art pages, listings, interviews with up & coming artists/bands

Stay tuned for more info.

Oh, & does anyone know where I could get my hands on a cheap possibly second-hand sewing machine/fabric paint or pens/jewellery parts?

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the good times are killing me. [02 Dec 2005|05:36pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

I need to write more.. I haven't written anything in over a year, maybe more.

Right now it seems like I don't have any time to pursue any interests or keep up with any hobbies. Which is a shame.

& Sometimes I feel like there is no point to any of this, everyone is going to die someday so it really doesn't make that much of a difference - it's all going to be forgotten and wasted.

& what are we even working for? The hope that someday we may reach a momentary sense of satisfaction that we have worked our whole lifetimes to achieve, only to enjoy it for a few brief years (if that) before we start searching for something new?

It may just be me, but everything seems as if the odds are stacked against us and that the slightest thing is a massive struggle.. and I'm sick of it. It's all a state of mind, so if I could find a way of removing myself from my mind I think I'd be fine.. but the only method I can think of involves an ice-pick, and frankly that'd be a little messy.
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@ club tropicana drinks are freeeeee [30 Nov 2005|08:13pm]
[ mood | bored ]

1.What does your LJ username/MySpace quote mean?
Lj username: 'Walking_Shade', well it was the first single from Billy Corgan's debut solo album.
If you clickedyclick on my Myspace, you will see that my quote is 'Hipsters Unite', which is from Cherub Rock - a really goood Pumpkins song!!

2. Elaborate on your userpic/default photo.
Userpic: Billy Corgan's teeth. I like them 'cause they're wonky.
Myspaz default pic: It's meee of course :D

3. Who introduced LJ/MySpace to you?
I've always known Livejournal existed.. sheesh! But out of all of my friends, I think Caroline had it first.
With Myspace, I was one of the first of my friends to have it.. when FaceParty lost its appeal.

4. How many comments do you have?
I don't count.

5. What's your current relationship status?
Single/Swinger. AKA- my own person, best way to be.

6. What are you wearing right now?
orange & white stripy jumper (better than it sounds) and pyjama bottoms.

7. What is your current problem?
I have £7 in my bank account & need to get tickets to see Belle & Sebastian but due to money problems I've got to wait :( I also need to find a hairspray that doesn't make my fringe feel like plastic.

8. What are you doing right now?
Painting my nails orange, filling out this and talking to people on msn.

10. What do you love most?
Music, life, interesting people.

11. What makes you most happy?
Creativity, good parties, having money to spend.

12. Are you musically inclined?
Very much so.

13. What would you do if you woke up one morning and found out you were on cocaine?
Be more worried that I had amnesia and couldn't recall being on coke before :s

14. If you could go back in time, and change something, what would it be?
I don't think I would.. think of the Butterfly Effect!

15. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day, what will you be?
Wild horse or something that can fly.. like an eagle or falcon or whatever. & I would swoop down and shit on the head of someone I disliked :D

16 Ever have a near death experience?

17. Name an obvious quality you have?
There is no way to answer this question without looking totally arrogant.

18. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
'She's Lost Control'

19. Are you happy today?

20. Name someone who will cut and paste this first.
My crazymad stalkerfans.

22. Who was your first crush?
Dunno.. I used to fancy Bruce Forsyth.

23. Have you ever vandalized someone's private property?
Can't remember.. not intentionally, I don't think.

24. Have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex?
Yeah, but I wouldn't be outraged if they hit me back.

25. Have you ever sang in front of a large audience?
Karaoke man :D

26.What's the first thing you notice about the opposite/same sex?
face, hair, clothes, facial expression.. if they're sporting some fetch eyewear: snazzy specs <3..

27.What do you usually order from Starbucks?
I dont, since I gave up milk.. unless they put soya in it instead?

28. What is your biggest mistake?
I don't make mistakes, everything happens for a reason -_-

29. Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose?
Haven't we all?
Oh, we haven't? Okay then..

30. Say something totally random about you:
random= unimaginative attempt at humour.

31. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
Yeah - Siouxsie Sioux, Cyndi Lauper, Rachel Leigh Cook, Kim Deal, Thora Birch.. some of which I agree with, others I don't.

32. Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
No, I'm not a kid.

33. Did you have braces?

34. Are you comfortable with your height?
No. I'd like to be MUCH taller. Still, at least I'm no midget.

35. What is the most romantic thing someone of the opposite sex has done for you?
Romance is dead :)

36.When do you know it's love?
It's not.

37. Do you speak any other language?

38. What is your favorite smell?
Jasmine, real jasmine not shitty scented stuff.

39. Have you ever been to a tanning salon?

40. What magazines do you read?
i-D, NME (occasionally), Glamour, Cosmo, Word.. & whatever mother gets.

41. Have you ever ridden in a limo?
No, boo.

42. Has anyone you were really close with passed away?
Not a close-close person, but family members have.

43. Do you ever watch MTV?
Only when Daria or Gonzo are on, and that's MTV2 anyway.

44.What's something that really annoys you?
Er what DOESN'T annoy me?

45. What's something you really like?
Vague much?

46. Do you like Michael Jackson
Never met him but I enjoy laughing at his misfortune. Good tunes though.

47. Can you dance?
Yeah but to the untrained human eye it resembles something quite different.

48. What's the longest you have ever stayed up?
probably a whole day? woooo.

49. Have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die?
Yeah when climbing a mountain. I'm sooo unfit, haha.

50. Have you ever been rushed by an ambulance into the Emergency Room?
No, can't say I have :(

well that wasted a good 10 minutes!!!

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something old//something new [29 Nov 2005|04:13pm]
[ mood | good ]

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she's lost control again [06 Nov 2005|12:23pm]
[ mood | introspective :( ]

I'm so shit at life, it's not even funny anymore.
I'm running out of excuses to make for myself, I'm even running out of the effort to make excuses.
This isn't another pathetic rant born out of boredom and not much else, this is 100% genuine.
And I don't want sympathy, that'll only make me worse.. I don't know what I want (and that's the whole problem), I think I should hibernate for a while until I sort myself out.
I'm so averse to any constancy in my life that I go out of my way to wreck anything that offers me the slightest stability, in the end I'm really going to have no-one if I continue like this.
But maybe that's just the way I am and I shouldn't try to fight it.. that would be all fine and well if it wasn't for the fact that my selfish, ungrateful behaviour actually hurts other people, regardless of how blasé I am about it myself.
I've come to realise the full extent of my hypocrisy and, although I'm loath to admit it, I've become everything I used to hate.

Where has my self-respect gone? I think I'd like it back.

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oh noes!! [01 Nov 2005|08:12pm]
[ mood | confused ]

I'm genuinely confused about my art project.. it's called SENSE OF PLACE and I keep getting new ideas for it all the time, then realising 'no, that's shite!'

I don't know why I went and printed off some pictures of harajuku girls cos I don't even like them much, they're scary!

I'm finally sorting my photography project out, which is good, but I wish the themes weren't so similar to the ideas I've been having for art... grrrr I keep getting mixed up between the two.

Anyways, you don't care because you don't know me.. or even if you do, you still don't care.. and I don't blame you!

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I've decided.. [28 Oct 2005|09:11pm]
[ mood | alreet ]

that Imogen is a really nice name for a girl.

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I'm a knob. [10 Oct 2005|09:49pm]
[ mood | groggy ]

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clic.k [09 Oct 2005|04:25pm]
[ mood | pleased ]


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[06 Oct 2005|04:50pm]
life is shit
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scarily accurate!!!! :o [28 Sep 2005|05:59pm]
[ mood | excited ]

ColorQuiz.com Claudia took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test!

"Needs to feel identified with someone or something..."

Click here to read the rest of the results.

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septembre [26 Sep 2005|06:53pm]
[ mood | impatient ]

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p o r c e l a i n h e a r t s & h a m m e r s f o r t e e t h . [11 Sep 2005|05:26pm]
[ mood | I have an itchy leg. ]

1.Wearing: Stripy polo shirt, long black bead necklace, baggy jeans, studded belt, black&white vans.
2.Listening to: The Bled.
3.Thinking of: College tomorrow, the fact that my job greatly impairs my social life, needing to work on art project.

1.Bought: A can of diet Irn Bru last night, and a metro ticket.
2.Ate and drank: Bread & hoummous (sp?) & juice.
4.Watched on TV: I tried to watch some TV the other night, but it annoyed me and I left the room.

1.Achiever or slacker: A bit of both. It's nice to achieve things, but all too tempting to slack off :]
2.Beer or cider: Why choose when you can have both?
3.Cats or dogs: I don't know, it's a bit of a dilemma.. either as long as they're friendly.
4.Your place or mine: Yours if we're going to break/spill things.
5.Pen or pencil: Another dilemma. I like black fineliners though. And marker pens.
6.Gloves or mittens: Gloves, more practical.
7.Food or candy: Food.
8.Cassette or CD: CDs are more practical, but I like cassettes for some reason :/
9.Coke or Pepsi: Not bothered.
10. Beach or water park: Beach.. at night.

1.Kill: Nobody really..
2.Hear from: Anyone I like.
3.Look like: Myself, but a bit thinner?
4.Be like: Myself, but a bit louder?
5.Avoid: Anyone annoying..

1.Touched: I can't remember.
2.Talked to: My mother.
3.Hugged: I can't remember, I'm not a very tactile person.
4.Instant messaged: Reub.
6.Who broke your heart: Nobody has had the pleasure of doing this.

1.Eat: In my kitchen or bedroom.
2.Dance: In my bedroom.
3.Cry: I don't, if possible.
4.Wish you were: Here's fine.

1.Dated one of your best friends? No.
2.Loved somebody so much it makes you cry? No.
3.Drank alcohol? Yes.
4.Done drugs: Yes.
5.Broken the law: Yes.
6.Ran away from home: No.
7.Broken a bone: No.
8.Cheated on a test: Yes.
9.Skinny-dipped: No.
10.Played truth or dare: Yes.
11.Flashed someone: No.
12.Mooned someone: No.
13.Kissed someone you didn't know: Yes :]
14.Been on a talk/game show: No.
15.Been in a fight: No.
16.Ridden in a fire truck: No.
17.Been on a plane: Yes, too many times.
18.Come close to dying: No.
19.Cheated on a boy/girlfriend: Errrr, define cheating pls? Maybe I did but I was under the influence of alcohol. And it wasn't as if I was going to marry the person. Ok, no more excuses.
20.Gave someone a piggy back/shoulder ride: Yes.
21.Eaten a worm: No.
22.Swam in the ocean: Yes.

1.Your bedroom like? Dark pink with a few posters/pictures up. I like it.
2.Your favorite thing for breakfast? Green tea.. I'm not fussed on cereals, I just have whatever's in the cupboard. Usually toast.
3.Your favorite thing for lunch? Again, not fussed as long as it's nice.
4.Your favorite thing for dinner? Anything apart from meat.
5.Your favorite Restaurant? Chinese or Italian.

1.Good At Sports?: No, I'm terrible.
2.Good At water-skiing? I don't know but I assume I'd be crap.
3.A Good Singer?: Yeah immense.
6.A good Actor/Actress?: No, I feel like a twat.
8.A Good Dancer?: No, I wish I was.
9.Shy?: Under certain circumstances.
10.Outgoing?: Under certain circumstances.

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. d r o p . a . h e ar t / b r e a k . a . n a m e . [11 Sep 2005|05:07pm]
[ mood | discontent ]

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a walk in the park [08 Sep 2005|04:23pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

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